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Organizing the Inside – Day 299 Oh! But God…

For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but that I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past. And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die. Philippians 1:20 (NLT)

Factor God in any equation, no matter how you may think things will work out. Don’t limit God He is much, much too great to be put in a box. The possibilities are limitless when you work with God.for with God all things are possible. Mark 10:27b (KJV) Therefore, no matter what your situation may look like, expect God to move in a mighty way. My soul, wait you only upon God; for my expectation is from him. Psalm 62:5 (KJV)

Regardless of what you have been through in the past God is putting you on notice.  He is giving you a heads-up that something new is beginning to happen in your life, your family, your marriage, your ministry, your business. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:19 (KJV) All those places in your life that seemed barren and unproductive, watch God do something new. Now is the time to put on the garment of praise with a forward thinking mind of expectation. Expect God to stand Lord over His promises. Everything He promised He will do! He who is the Glory of Israel does not lie or change his mind; for he is not a man, that he should change his mind.”  1 Samuel 15:29 (NIV) The next time you are working things out in your mind, just remember to factor in God.

Look closely at what is already happening and you can see it. The Spirit of God is moving into areas that are undeveloped, untouched and unaffected by spiritual influences.  Those areas that lay dormant are about to change. He is making a river in the desert. God is bringing those areas to life by bringing in water (the Word) which sustains all life.  Begin to prepare your heart and expect God to increase your productivity and expand your territory. Are you willing to trust God today and expect Him to come through for you? Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. Psalm 20:7 (NIV)

Organizing the Inside – Day 284 Beyond Regrets

36Simon Peter asked, “Lord, where are you going?” And Jesus replied, “You can’t go with me now, but you will follow me later.” 37“But why can’t I come now, Lord?” he asked. “I’m ready to die for you.” 38Jesus answered, “Die for me? I tell you the truth, Peter—before the rooster crows tomorrow morning, you will deny three times that you even know me. John 13:36-38 (NLT)

Peter’s denial of Christ was very public. At one time Peter thought he was ready to stand boldly and show his love and commitment to Jesus. Yet Jesus saw beyond Peter’s zeal and foretold him that he was indeed not ready to die for Him. In fact Jesus told Peter that he would deny Him. The guilt and shame that Peter felt must have been almost overwhelming when he finally realized what he had done. I’m sure this was a difficult and humbling experience for him.

Sometimes Christians are so full of zeal, but their enthusiasm is misdirected.
For I can testify about them that they are zealous for God, but their zeal is not based on knowledge. Romans 10:2 (NIV) I love street witnessing. So excited about the Lord; I was just beginning to understand the power that was at work within me. After going through weeks of prayer and training, we saw many folks saved and delivered as we witnessed on the streets week after week. All the excitement and readiness was leading up to one of our biggest nights, Halloween. We knew that in certain neighborhoods the people would be out and not only that, they would be happy to answer the door! This night was different in that two others were with me. Usually we went out in teams of two. Prayed up, in full armor and ready to go, we approached one home and an elderly woman answered the door. We began to share the good news, but the blank stare she gave was a clear indication she had no idea what we were saying.

Not knowing what to do next.
We stood at the door baffled that God had left us so ill-equipped.  The two who were with me looked at each other and shook their heads as to say, “I’ve got nothing” and I knew eventually they’d look at me. With only seconds to decide I stood there shaking in my sneakers. You see, there was an unfamiliar anointing upon me that flowed from my belly to my vocal cords and onto my tongue. I knew that the Lord had given me the words to speak to this woman in her native tongue. I wanted so desperately to tell her how Jesus died for her and about God’s love. Yet in that very moment I said nothing. I shook my head and hunched my shoulders to the others as to say, “beats me.” We stood there for a few more moments, waiting for God to provide and He did. I felt as though my tongue was about to fly right out of my mouth and the powerful force stirring within me made it difficult to maintain my composure. Yet, I did not open my mouth. The thoughts of what will they think, and why did God choose me, and what if I sound crazy, came all at once as I stood there on the porch that Halloween night and denied Christ.

Is He Lord and Savior?
As we walked away my witnessing partners were bewildered that God did not provide. Only I knew the truth. The river of power soon began to subside and was replaced by the absolute worst feeling of sadness and shame. As we made our way down the sidewalk to the next house God reminded me of His love for me, of His forgiveness. The hope that I was so anxiously wanting to share with all the trick-or-treaters or anyone else willing to listen, was now the exact hope I needed most. Unlike Peter’s public denial, my guilt was private and no one else knew. Peter grew to love Christ more and went on to do great things as one of the founding fathers of the early church.  For me, that night in my humbled state I discovered something new about being a Christian. Jesus didn’t want to be my Savior only; He wanted to be my Lord. Over those next weeks, as God restored my confidence I had a new appreciation for God’s forgiveness and my relationship with Him.

As your love for Christ grows, your zeal will be according to knowledge.
As your desire for Him deepens, as you spend more time in His presence, your heart will soon discover He is more than just your Savior; He must also be Lord. Whether we get off the throne, and allow Christ to take His place as Lord of our lives or not, Jesus is Lord! 10That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; 11And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. Philippians 2:10, 11 (KJV)

Years later, I wondered what happened to the elderly woman who answered the door that night. The part I left out was that, during the time we were standing there wondering what to do next, she left the door and came back with her bible. It was in Spanish and she began to speak to us in Spanish with the brightest smile as she held her bible close. Somehow, we understood she knew the Lord. Of course none of us could understand a word she said and she didn’t understand us either. That night was one of those experiences you have with the Lord that changes you forever. Jesus foreknew and yet He still chose me anyway.

God knows we are going to fall short.
Even Peter denied him three times, but he went on to do so much for the Lord. God’s grace gives us the power and confidence to keep going. His grace is all we need to overcome our past mistakes. You can still move forward and do wonderful things for God, because Christ’s blood flows freely. His grace is quite capable of supplying you and me with the power we need to continue in Him. If Peter had denied the Lord five times instead of three, God’s grace would have been available just the same. It’s plenty enough to free, cover and empower you, me and the entire world. Therefore today, we are moving beyond regrets, beyond fear and beyond ourselves as we enter into that place where Christ is not only our Savior, but He is Lord.

Organizing the Inside – Day 282 Let Us Fix Our Eyes On The Answer

Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:2 (KJV)

Is your mind perplexed?
Until we see Him face to face, there will be unanswered questions. So many of the questions you’ve asked since you were young in the Lord still go unanswered. Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely. 1 Corinthians 13:12 (NLT) As you grow closer to Him; as your love for the Father deepens, certain answers you sought are no long important, because you now know the Answer.

Stay focused on the mission.
Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you. Proverbs 4:25 (NLT)
When you trust the author there is no longer a need to know the story behind the story; you just know that the story is true. Jesus is the author and finisher of our faith. Not only is He the one who has the authority to create our faith; He is also the one who will ensure the completion of our faith. How beautiful is His Word that strengthens feeble knees. “So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the LORD your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:6 (NLT)

Listen to the call to TRUST God.

Here is a wonderful post from Shannon Moreno
A Work In Progress

Organizing the Inside – Day 271 A Love For The Things Of God

“The master said, ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!’Matthew 25:23 (NLT)

What does it mean to have a love for the things of God?  Let’s say I was planning a trip to Europe and was scheduled to be abroad for six months? While on this trip I couldn’t take anything with me. I had to entrust the things I valued most to my closest friend. If that friend loves me, they are going to take care of my things; especially those things that are important to me. Additionally the things that are associated with my name are also going to be important to my friend and need to be looked after. The important things would primarily be my family, but especially my children.  Perhaps, I’d want my friend to take care of my ministry and those things that I have labored to support, like my garden, or home. I would likely want to have my bills paid, as this would also protect my good name and reputation. My friend would take care of any special commitments that I’ve made to others, and even look after my pets.

How does one know if they have a love for the things of God?
Such a simple and uncomplicated question, yet discovering the truth may not be that simple. Part of the evidence of your love for God is proven by the way you care for those things that are important to Him. Only you and God really know the truth, your heart will guide you and the Holy Spirit will strengthen you to make the right choices as your love for God grows even stronger.

1. Ask yourself do you care for the Body of Christ? Do you love the brethren? The “Body of Christ” which is the church; the children of God are near and dear to God’s heart. A third time he asked him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” Peter was hurt that Jesus asked the question a third time. He said, “Lord, you know everything. You know that I love you.” Jesus said, “Then feed my sheep. John 21:17 (NLT) If someone says, “I love God,” but hates a Christian brother or sister, that person is a liar; for if we don’t love people we can see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see?  1 John 4:20 (NLT)

2. Do you know where your loyalties lie?  “No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.” Luke 16:13 (NIV)

3. Do you love the things of the world? You really can’t love God and the things of God if you love the things of the world. Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you. 1 John 2:15 (NLT)

4. Have you torn down the idols in your life? God wants to take you into the land that He has promised. Is there an accursed thing that can be found in your midst? Consider this, do you have old ungodly music, DVDs, books, etc. that you are holding on to? These represent those things that unbelievers cling to; these are idols and as Christians who love and care for the things of God we must remove them from among our own possessions. Israel hath sinned, and they have also transgressed my covenant which I commanded them: for they have even taken of the accursed thing, and have also stolen, and dissembled also, and they have put it even among their own stuff. Joshua 7:11 (KJV) Think about all your choices and if there is anything you have allowed to become more important to you than God.

5. Do you care for the physical things of God like the environment, the animals and your own body? A righteous man cares for the needs of his animal, but the kindest acts of the wicked are cruel. Proverbs 12:10 (NIV) Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body. 1 Corinthians 6:19, 20

6. Are you cheerful about obeying God’s Word? Those who accept my commandments and obey them are the ones who love me. And because they love me, my Father will love them. And I will love them and reveal myself to each of them.”  John 14:21 (NLT) Is it a difficult chore to do what is right? For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous. 1 John 5:3 (KJV)

7. Is your hope and glory eternal? To them who by patient continuance in well doing seek for glory and honor and immortality, eternal life: Romans 2:7 (KJV)

Organizing the Inside – Day 265 Surely God Understands Me

Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. Psalm 51:6 (KJV)

Just because God knows how you are, doesn’t mean you don’t need to change. I wonder if we make excuses so that we can justify not  changing. So you have a habit and you know it shows an overt lack of faith, yet you try to justify it by saying, “God knows how I am.” In her futile attempt to rationalize her so-called quirkiness that’s rooted in an irrational germ phobia, she summarizes such behavior as, “just how I am.” Not calling it what it is, a real lack of trust that God is greater than her fear. In the vanity of her individuality, she tries to suggest it’s no big deal to wash her hands 20-30 times while preparing a meal. Honestly she knows her compulsive behavior is bordering on sin, but it’s much easier to play it off and leave things the way they are. God accepts us because He sees our faith when we come to Him. ( Romans 3:27)  But, just because God accepts us the way we are, doesn’t mean He is pleased to accept our unwillingness to completely yield to Him.

I’ve always been this way is not a good reason to continue.
How can one find internal order, when there is an unwillingness to let go of everything and yield completely to the Lordship of Jesus Christ? For God is not a God of disorder but of peace, 1 Corinthians 14:33a (NIV) Certainly disorder is what any of us have if we don’t let go. …and everything that does not come from faith is sin. Romans 14:23 (NIV) The scripture is fired up and loaded, ready to defend your position because after all, “God understands,” for he knows how weak we are; he remembers we are only dust. Psalm 103:14 (NLT) God’s gentle kindness and longsuffering demonstrated through His patience, in that, He hasn’t utterly destroyed us is not permission to continue in wrong-doing.

Choose to let go of this thing that you have falsely identified with. Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17 (KJV) Allow God to permeate every area of your heart. Today, may you give up the not so cute thing that you’ve been clinging to. That hard thing that’s been around so long it’s now considered harmless, and only customary. Yes, give up full ownership and not hold back anything for yourself. It’s not necessary to fix, undo, move, hide, tuck, tug or pull, only YIELD. God is willing to meet you at your point of need. He reaches down to right where you are, where we all are in our lives today. It’s time to surrender this one, which seems like an old childhood friend, so familiar yet after all these years a stranger to anyone new in Christ.

Is Christ truly Lord over all? Or is that one weakness, you’re holding on to, enough to keep you from relinquishing the throne?  After all God knows how you are.

Organizing the Inside – Day 251 When Your “Purr” Turns Into A “Rumble”

Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Romans 12:11 (NIV)

My truck “Lizzy” was acting weird and didn’t seem to have the quick acceleration that she once did. At first I just said, “hum?” and kept driving it. Day after day, I started to notice a change. The engine seemed to make a strange sound when I started her up in the morning. That lovely purr I’d become so fond of was quickly being replaced by a growl and I was no longer getting the same great mileage either. Finally I started to notice when I’d come to a sudden stop, Lizzy would rumble just a bit. Surely there was something affecting her performance; she just didn’t respond on the road the way I was use to her responding. Lizzy’s problems were not uncommon. Lizzy was sluggish and just not operating at her peak performance any more. As I thought about it, Lizzy’s change reminded me of many Christian women who keep going and doing, and running and working without ever stopping for a much-needed tune-up.

Are you feeling especially sluggish or slothful?
Are you exhausted? Are your emotions on edge regardless of the time of month? If so, perhaps it’s time you check in (your prayer closet) for servicing with the greatest certified spiritual mechanic known to mankind, Jesus Christ the Righteous. Let Him put you up on the lift and run a diagnostic test (quiet time with the Lord). Once you are connected to the truth indicator, (Word of God) everything that is slowing you down can be corrected. If your system is not operating at its maximum efficiency you need to take care of those few small concerns. Left unattended those minor issues may eventually turn into something major.

Christ will renew your strength.
Through the power of the Holy Spirit you will again start to operate at the apex of your performance capacity. By faith, through prayer, commit all your issues, concerns and malfunctioning parts to God. Once you take time, better yet, make time to get before His presence; He will meet you there. He will replenish all your spiritual fluids, inflate tires, check fuel lines, and replace spark plugs too. Whatever is needed, Jesus is there to give you that spiritual tune-up, which only He can do. It’s truly not until we make time to spend with our creator that any of us can run each day at our peak performance levels.

Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the grave, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom. Ecclesiastes 9:10 (NIV)

Organizing the Inside – Day 249 Willing To Be Inconvenienced

1When Jesus returned to Capernaum several days later, the news spread quickly that he was back home. 2Soon the house where he was staying was so packed with visitors that there was no more room, even outside the door. While he was preaching God’s word to them, 3four men arrived carrying a paralyzed man on a mat. 4They couldn’t bring him to Jesus because of the crowd, so they dug a hole through the roof above his head. Then they lowered the man on his mat, right down in front of Jesus. 5Seeing their faith, Jesus said to the paralyzed man, “My child, your sins are forgiven.”  Mark 2:1-5 (NLT)

True friends have a critical role.
Mark shares how this paralyzed man who was unable to get before Jesus on his own was helped by his friends. His friends went to great lengths to see to it that they brought him before the one who could help him. Not only did this man’s friends climb onto the roof, they also had to lift him to the roof as well. They additionally had to go through with digging the hole in just the right place so that when they lowered him down, he would be directly in front of Jesus. I can imagine that this was not necessarily so easy to do. They could have given up and just said we’ll try again some other time when it’s not as crowded. Did they need to exert extra strength or take certain care to make sure the hole was just in the right place? What a huge inconvenience this must have been for this man’s friends.

Yet, what great faith they had, and that faith moved them to action.
Although this was an inconvenience they acted on their faith, on behalf of their friend. As a result of these men acting on their faith, Jesus responded and the paralyzed man was made whole. How willing are you to be inconvenienced for a friend? Is there someone in your life who needs you to bring them right before the Lord? How far are you willing go, to act on your faith? Consider those whom God has made your friends. How does God want to use you in the friendship, and what purpose does this friendship bring?

No greater love.                         
Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13 (NLT) Jesus was referring to His own willingness to die for us, as He indeed considers us His friends. Jesus is also teaching the spiritual perspective whereby one is willing to give up something that is of particular interest or significant value for a friend. Being willing to give of your time, prayers or resources is a way of laying down your life. You are simply laying aside your own desires, wants, needs and motives to give to the life of another. Jesus shows us that there is no greater love. Are you a true friend to someone today? If so, have you considered what you are willing to sacrifice for your friend?

Organizing the Inside – Day 216 Love Beyond Death

41He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, 42“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” 43An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. 44And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.

Jesus agonized over what was before Him.
He experienced great anguish because of what He knew He had to do. I honestly cannot comprehend the pain of all the sin, deceit, sickness, disease, poverty, fear, hate and disobedience of all mankind being placed upon One who knew no sin. What an indescribable burden He was about to carry. I believe although Jesus was 100% God, He was also 100% man and this was a time of tremendous grief and sorrow for Him. He even asked God if it was possible to take the cup away. Christ, the man considered not having to go through what was before Him.

His love said, not so.
Although Christ asked God if it was possible for Him to not face the cross, the love He had for us all compelled Him to give His life. As Christ accepted the will of God, His love kept Him on track. It was His love for the Father that assured Him of His and our eternal glory. He loved us so much that He was willing to lay down His life for our freedom. Erasing our guilt, sin and shame; He knew death, hell and the grave would also be defeated. What a purpose and cause to live for? What a cause to suffer and die for? What love?

Just as Christ had a purpose, so do we.
Most Christians have not had to suffer unto death to fulfill God’s purpose for our lives. However, each of us must die to our own selfish desires. Saying no to the world and yes to God in spite of our own wants is passing on the same love that Christ has for us. Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13 (KJV) We have been made strong through Christ’s suffering and God will continue to strengthen you and me for the road that is before us. May we each reach the point where our hearts are filled with enough love, whereby we trust God no matter how great the sacrifice, no matter what the cost.  Also read Isaiah 53


Organizing the Inside – Day 203 Putting Fear In Its Place

Jesus replied to Simon, “Don’t be afraid! From now on you’ll be fishing for people!” 11And as soon as they landed, they left everything and followed Jesus. Luke 5:5-11 (NLT)

This post is a continuation from yesterday – Day 202. If you missed yesterday’s post, I invite you to go back and read it to get the full concept of what I’ve written.

Taking a stand against fear is the best way to put it in its place.
Decide now that if Daniel can go into the lion’s den, and come out untouched you too have the protection you need to stand for what is right. If Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego can come out of the fiery furnace without as much as the scent of smoke on their clothing, then surely you are fully capable of victoriously facing anything that is before you. If you are confident that your dream is from God and it is what He has given you a passion for, then you must go-for-it.

Jesus prayed, “Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done.”
God’s will is to be done on earth, in our hearts and lives as it is in heaven. The Kingdom of God is set up within every believer who would dare to forsake their own selfish ambitions and follow Christ. The disciples walked away from everything (Luke 5:11). They were focused on one thing, obeying Christ and doing God’s will. When we are committed to following Christ, He tells us that He will give us the desires of our hearts. May he grant your heart’s desires and make all your plans succeed. Psalm 20:4 (NLT) Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Psalm 37:4 (NLT) Why would He do such a thing? When we put God first and follow Him, our desires, dreams and passions are for the things of God, they fit perfectly into His will for our lives. No longer are you concerned with impressing others with your status among men, you are concerned with God’s kingdom coming. In His kingdom there is only true love. There is no room for pride, jealousy, selfishness, or greed in the heart of one who has allowed God’s Kingdom to set up there.

Jesus told us many times in the scriptures not to be afraid.
Fear holds us back. Here is the key, when you allow His kingdom to come and be established in your heart and life you have overcome fear. Why? “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” 1 John 4:18  (NIV) When God’s kingdom comes into your heart, I mean – you have completely yielded and your life is completely about doing His will, something happens on the inside and all fear is gone. I believe this is a supernatural occurrence orchestrated by the Holy Spirit when God has a vessel that is totally yielded to His will. We understand this, God’s kingdom is already established in heaven. In heaven there is no disobedience, fear, or selfishness it just doesn’t exist there. What Jesus was praying for was that while we are here, God’s kingdom would come in our hearts and lives. That means DOING WHAT GOD PUT IN YOUR HEART TO DO. Really it is that simple, obeying God and agreeing with Him. When Simon and the disciples were ready to leave everything to follow Jesus they did so for a reason; they were pursuing their purpose. Jesus immediately told  Simon two things:

  1. “Don’t be afraid.”
  2. “From now on, you will be fishing for people.”

The key to overcoming your fear is doing God’s will.
Move out of the problem and into the solution. By following your dream, you will find yourself directly in the center of the Will of God. Your brilliant zone is there (in God’s Will) the place where your talents, abilities, gifts and skills work best. Ask God for help today, the answers you’re looking for are not hidden. If you don’t know your purpose, He will show you. If you are not sure about your vision, He will clarify it. God wants His children to be filled with love, Perfect love drives out fear 1 John 4:18 and God is Love 1 John 4:16.

May God’s Kingdom come and may His will be done, in earth as it is in heaven.

Organizing the Inside – Day 177 Free to Be Completely Honest

1Oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight!
2Yes, what joy for those whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt, whose lives are lived in complete honesty!
~Psalm 32:1, 2

Is it possible to live a life free of guilt?  We all have made mistakes, poor choices and have even chosen to commit sin. Who can actually be found blameless?

You and I can because of Christ’s finished work at Calvary. Knowing God’s forgiveness and experiencing the cleansing power of His blood is not a license to sin.  On the contrary, knowing God and His love for us in spite of our past mistakes and sins gives us liberty and allows us to serve Him freely. David said, Finally, I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide my guilt. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.” And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone. Psalm 32:5

We must leave the cluttered past behind
No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, Philippians 3:13
No matter what has happened in the past we are free from the guilt and shame of yesterday’s choices. The child of God who loves God does not just keep on sinning. “If you love me, obey my commandments. John 14:15 God wouldn’t ask us to do something that was not possible. He has given us victory over sin, therefore, We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin; the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the evil one cannot harm him.1 John 5:18

When God is moving you forward
The enemy will try to bring up your past. He will attempt to remind you of anything that may cause you to want to give up. The devil wants you to deny God’s power and be afraid of failing. (read Luke 22:31, 32) We however have an advocate, My dear children, I am writing this to you so that you will not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate who pleads our case before the Father. He is Jesus Christ, the one who is truly righteous.1 John 2:1 Jesus is able to keep us from falling or failing. (read Jude 1:24)

We do have the power to live our lives in complete honesty.
It is God who enables us to walk blamelessly. We can live a life that glorifies God. We must allow His Word to purify our hearts, stop looking back and maintain a simple lifestyle that is uncomplicated by the cares of this world. The victory is yours, Jesus paid the price; now it’s up to you to live in grace and glorify God.